Entries for October, 2004

October 7th, 2004


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Posted by bluemango at 11:04 AM | 1 makitagay

time to kiss bOrAcaY

four days more to go. i have to leave the city; my school, my friends, the memories we shared, and the chaotic moment it offered.

this semester never really gave me remarkable dates and happy hours; many things happened; unexplainable, hard, inevitable.

good thing, i have to leave. better buy my superferry ticket, pack my things, settle my accounts, cross the ocean, and kiss my mom.

regrets, regrets, regrets.


it's so hard sending a tarantado son in the city.

how i wish i made good turns.
Posted by bluemango at 11:34 AM | nakitagay

October 11th, 2004

nonsense

time to go
and let go...

after an hour or two
i have to leave the city

i'll be missing my friends
my pillow, your smile,
our senseless talks

this semester
i must say made me crave
for something more,
something different,
something i never expected.

still, i am waiting.

i'm still here.

just like what i've told you.
Posted by bluemango at 04:36 AM | nakitagay

October 14th, 2004

may internet pala dito?!

wow.

salamat at merong internet dito sa kalibo. it gives me a fucking reason to watch, reply or simply look at the pictures people posted at yahoogroups.

miss ko na mga tao sa luzon. miss ko na din matulog nang early morning. miss ko na din magdaldal sa klase. miss ko na din barahin sa mga jokes kong lubhang nakakatawa.

sayang. walang 3jrn3 dito.

this is already my 3rd day in aklan. masaya kahit medyo walang ginagawa. for the first time, i felt belongingness. (ang lalim). yung tipong you don't have to worry about pagkain, pera, or what other people would say because--- youre at home now. but then, the bound to refrain from smoking or drinking alcohol comes. wala na din akong pera, ang mahal pa naman ng internet dito, P40 per hour. palibhasa kase, ngayon lang nagkainternet dito.

it was no longer a kagulat-gulat stuff saken na uminom pagdating sa bahay ng sanmig pale na pantatay. pero masarap naman eh. it's not the beer you drink anyway. it's the thought of whom you are drinking with that counts. ayus.

basta, pinakahinahanap-hanap ko, yung mga ngiti mo. yung buhok mong sumusunod sa bawat tibok ng aking puso. yung mga mata mong singganda ng beach na jinajagingan ko tuwing umaga.

ge, teik care. 1 hour pa kase byahe papuntang pabalik sa men. kabit na lang akong jeep. internet lang naman pinunta ko dito e. kaya ayus lang. internet, at ikaw.
Posted by bluemango at 07:32 AM | 1 makitagay

October 18th, 2004

i miss you now, just like how i miss you when you're already with somebody.

keeping the distance apart, though i hesitated to do at first made me realize that it's not yet the right time to be with you or to be with anyone else; that i don't really have to feel angry or bitter just because i loved you yet you loved somebody more.

missing you made me stronger. ironic. i never even expected it. but now, missing you seems the only thing i can think of. i miss you now, even from the moment i told you i must forget you and that "i hope this will also be the last time that i will be crying for you."

i was too weak to suppress that feeling. your memories were too strong.

just want you to know that i will always be here for you. i know that loving me the way i want to is too much to ask.

i hope i can be with you soon.

i already told you this. just want you to know that it's still you.

i love you.
Currently feeling: determined
Posted by bluemango at 04:57 AM | nakitagay